I feel I was born in the wrong body, what do you think?

Lost my female identity, bullshit I've seen, bullshit I've done. People I've hurt, ***** who've hurt me. They think I'm a dike, at least butch. I'm hard. I can't change. Living misfit, I might as well be gay. But I'm not. My voice is deep. I have only male friends. I've tried the gay lifestyle and it ain't for me. Was brought up in church. God made me like this and society reinforced it. No love for me. Nobody wants a female with a dude's brain. I was born in the wrong body.